My friend calls it the “S” word. Others call it loneliness… I call it being exactly where I need to be right now.
I’ve been on my own for a while now… which is strange for me because up until the last 2 years of my life I had always been in a serious relationship, the “other half” of another. The problem with being someone’s other half was that I hadn’t quite figured out who I was, or who God created me to be. Although I missed the butterflies, I’ve fallen in love with the greatest love of all and discovered that whispers of a King’s love is more exciting than all the butterflies in the world!
It doesn’t mean that I don’t feel lonely at times or wish that I could share my life today with the man that God has set aside for me to meet one day; it means that I am trusting that God’s timing is better than my own and He is a better matchmaker for me than anyone I could possibly choose for myself. My dear friend and Employer, often teases me that I have more than enough admirers and I have only to choose one of the many who fits my checklist. The thing is- it’s not about finding the one to fit who I am looking for. It’s not about looking at all.
You see, whenever I feel the “S” word creeping up on me I remind myself that I’m not really single… just waiting for the perfect moment when our two stories merge into one beautiful melody. I am not alone because He is out there, following God in steps of obedience until those steps of obedience lead him right to me. We are in the midst of our love story right now! As I choose to be faithful to my Man even now, I am showing him today that I love him today, even if I may have not even met him yet! When I miss him, I write him letters so that he knows he has been on my heart and mind even now.
As Miss BC, I receive many emails from young girls asking me for advice or guidance. Sometimes the questions they ask me are about love and boys. I give them the same advice that I remind myself- “Do not awaken love until the time is right” (Solomon 8:4). Every girl, including myself, is eagerly anticipating the day when her heart will be part of an epic love story. Sometimes we get ahead of ourselves and initiate things on our own accord, but if we look to the stories of Cinderella, Snow White, Mulan and Jasmine, each Princess found love when she was not looking for it but patiently waiting, doing what needed to be done and faithfully giving herself to the task before her.
So I will choose to take steps of obedience until those steps bring me to where God needs me to be.
This is my Claddagh Ring, the Traditional Irish ring that I wear everyday as a token of my future love. “With these two hands I give you my heart and crown it with my love”